hair problems
Jun. 12th, 2017 10:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
carlyinromeUgh I have been trying to grow my hair out, but the longer it gets the more I remember why I haven't had long hair in so long. It looks great, but it is more work and less comfortable with every inch. I miss this haircut so much:
And it is super cute, but it makes me overly self conscious of my fat face. I hate all this weight. I know the Abilify saved my life, and I am so, so grateful, but I've been off the drug for over a year, and most of the weight I gained is still sticking around, and I just feel ugly and uncomfortable. It's shallow and ridiculous and I know it, but that doesn't mean I can stop feeling it.
I'm also unhappy with the dye job I got at the salon last time. It's been less than a month, and already the ash tone is gone, and I look like a dandelion. She also left a lot of root; I noticed that the day after I got it done, and at first I thought maybe it was because of how they lightened my hair previously for the pink, but now that the rest of the color has gone south, I don't know what to think. I just know it looks bad. I am considering doing a box color myself to get it to the ashy blonde I want (Feria also has a new rose gold that I really want to try, but my voice of reason is shouting, WHEN WILL YOU LEARN?), but I worry about something going wrong, and I worry about damaging my hair, and I worry that I'll have thrown away the Only Getting Salon Color cycle I've created, and I'll have to go back to the beginning, which will take forever. Because of shrinkage, it takes such a long time to see appreciable growth. Imagine the time it takes for you to grow out your hair. Now double it, and that's where I am. I know that no matter what I do, it will grow back, but I've invested so much time that I am hesitant to make a change. Though I want to. A lot. I want to go out tomorrow and get my cute favorite haircut that shows off my fat face.
Ugh ragazzi tell me what to doooooooo.
And it is super cute, but it makes me overly self conscious of my fat face. I hate all this weight. I know the Abilify saved my life, and I am so, so grateful, but I've been off the drug for over a year, and most of the weight I gained is still sticking around, and I just feel ugly and uncomfortable. It's shallow and ridiculous and I know it, but that doesn't mean I can stop feeling it.
I'm also unhappy with the dye job I got at the salon last time. It's been less than a month, and already the ash tone is gone, and I look like a dandelion. She also left a lot of root; I noticed that the day after I got it done, and at first I thought maybe it was because of how they lightened my hair previously for the pink, but now that the rest of the color has gone south, I don't know what to think. I just know it looks bad. I am considering doing a box color myself to get it to the ashy blonde I want (Feria also has a new rose gold that I really want to try, but my voice of reason is shouting, WHEN WILL YOU LEARN?), but I worry about something going wrong, and I worry about damaging my hair, and I worry that I'll have thrown away the Only Getting Salon Color cycle I've created, and I'll have to go back to the beginning, which will take forever. Because of shrinkage, it takes such a long time to see appreciable growth. Imagine the time it takes for you to grow out your hair. Now double it, and that's where I am. I know that no matter what I do, it will grow back, but I've invested so much time that I am hesitant to make a change. Though I want to. A lot. I want to go out tomorrow and get my cute favorite haircut that shows off my fat face.
Ugh ragazzi tell me what to doooooooo.
