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[carlyinrome]

My aunt is going into hospice. The tumor they cut out is gone, but the inoperable ones they have been radiating haven't shrunk at all. The cancer has spread throughout her frontal lobe. She can't stand by herself. She will not eat or drink.

She was diagnosed March 16th, and had surgery the next day.

That was 99 days ago.

My dad is flying up tomorrow, and more than anything I wish that he gets there in time to say goodbye.

It's just so far away, and time is not on our side.

The only other women on that side of the family are my grandmother and my great aunt. They died a long time ago. There will be no one before me. That part is hitting me hard, and I'm not sure why.

I was the flower girl at her wedding. It was 20 years ago, but I still remember vividly sitting in the pew of the church and watching as the priest had to leave the pulpit to get my aunt some water because she couldn't stop coughing long enough to read her vows.

That was the first thing. They found cancer in her lungs, and she lost half of one.

I feel like I am remembering this backwards.

Comments

[book_lover]

I am so sorry to hear this. Sending love to you and your family.

[carlyinrome]

Thank you.

[lafemmedarla]

*hugs*

[carlyinrome]

*hugs*