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carlyinromeI spent most of today in bed because Pain. I'm exhausted on a cellular level. My mood is weird. Sometimes my thoughts are totally scattered. Sometimes I'm down, sometimes irritable and/or anxious. I am paranoid and scared and stressed, especially about money to the point that I feel physically ill.
My thoughts are too loud, like bat wings breaking the air by my ears.
I want to get this haircut again, my favorite:
It feels so good, but I look dyke-y and even fatter with short hair. My long hair is beautiful and I look better with it, but it's uncomfortable. Maybe I'm just so irritable that everything bothers me. My hair hurts. Maybe I want to slice it off so that just one thing will be lighter. I can carry one less thing.
I have this unshakable feeling that I'm a bad person, and there's nothing I can do to fix it. Out, damned spot. Hell is murky.
My thoughts are too loud, like bat wings breaking the air by my ears.
I want to get this haircut again, my favorite:
It feels so good, but I look dyke-y and even fatter with short hair. My long hair is beautiful and I look better with it, but it's uncomfortable. Maybe I'm just so irritable that everything bothers me. My hair hurts. Maybe I want to slice it off so that just one thing will be lighter. I can carry one less thing.
I have this unshakable feeling that I'm a bad person, and there's nothing I can do to fix it. Out, damned spot. Hell is murky.
