terrible pain log, day...?

[carlyinrome]

On the migraine front, I had another terrible, medication resistant migraine today. My dad has been renovating the bedroom next to mine, and today involved a lot of hammering. There was nowhere I could go and not hear it, not feel each strike like a pickaxe to my temple. (And no, it would do no good to ask him to stop; he's never sick, he's never in pain, and he doesn't understand or sympathize at all with people who are. He once responded to one of my suicide attempts as, "not the proper reaction to a bad day," and he tells me both my chronic, debilitating illnesses are a matter of my bad attitude. My mother, who has arthritis in her hips, legs, and feet, he constantly derides for not exercising. "Just go on a walk!" he says, not understanding that for her a walk is fucking agonizing.)

I just broke down sobbing, not because of the intensity of the pain, but because it is so inescapable and oppressive, and mentally and physically I am just done.

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[elucidate_this]

*gentle hugs* I'm so sorry.

[carlyinrome]

Thanks. *hugs*