various things and stuff

[carlyinrome]

Post-Botox, I had a couple really bad days and then three of the best days I've had in 2017. Now today I had a really bad day again, and I'm trying not to think of it as a setback, but it's hard.

I've been taking the imitrex shots; the injection hurts every time, but 50% of the time it doesn't leave a mark or even bleed, and the other half of the time it bleeds and leaves a huge welt, and I really don't see what I'm doing differently to produce these results.

Is there a way to post to DW on my phone that doesn't make me want to burn everything, or no? Also the images thing on here I hate so much.

At the neurologist last week, I was informed that I've lost ten pounds, but I can't feel it or see it. Not that I'm complaining.

I bought myself a cute little Polaroid-but-not camera, and I am so pleased. It's rose gold and white vegan leather and it takes instant photographs the size of a credit card.

My car needs a lot of repairs that can no longer wait, and there's a real possibility that they'll cost more than the car is worth. I have not a lot of money but a lot of money for me squirreled away from my disability settlement, and I am weighing the pros and cons of buying a new (to me) car instead of shelling out to stick a band-aid on this one. But spending money makes me feel massive guilt and this will be thousands of dollars, so I am feeling thousands of massive guilt.

I am going on a very special trip to see someone dear to me the first week of May. More updates later.

xoxo

Comments

[book_lover]

My (unasked for) advice is that it's better to buy a new (to you) car, rather than putting more money into a car that's on its last legs. It's a waste of your money to put into a car that's not reliable.

I hope the treatments for your headaches yield success. It may take a while. I had the same problem when I was taking insulin shots for diabetes. Sometimes it wouldn't leave a mark, and sometimes my belly (where I gave myself the shots) would look like a pincushion. You might want to use a topical treatment - ask your doctor for a recommendation. Cocoa butter is good for healing scars, if that's a problem.

[carlyinrome]

Thanks for the advice. I've actually found one that would be pretty perfect, but I'm stressed about the money because I can put down 2/3 or so, but medical bills have left me with not great credit. :/ I am really getting my hopes up about the car I like, though, and I keep having to tell myself, "It's not a puppy, you can't just have feelings and take it home," but I *am* having a lot of feelings, and if it doesn't turn out I'll have even more feelings. Ugh, INFJ life.

[book_lover]

I'm an INFJ, too! I think President Obama is, too, just guessing from things I've read about him, how he likes to do things.

I hope you can get the car. Think positive, and you'll find a way! Even if you don't get *that* particular car, you may find one that suits you better and that you like even more! You never know. Be open to possibilities.

[lizrocks]

Get a new (to you) car. It's safer in the long run.

I'm glad you had some good days! You've had a lot of bad ones this year. My knowledge of botox is slim to none but I remember you saying that sometimes it doesn't work for people but like, what if it works sometimes? Does that mean it'll work more if you keep at it?

I tagged you in something on tumblr but it's in my queue so it won't show up for the next 5 million years AND I'm not 100% on how to tag. So this paragraph is to say that sometime in the future you may or may not be tagged in a tumblr reblog that takes less time to read than this paragraph...

[carlyinrome]

Well, since it's an unpleasant and very expensive procedure, if you don't show significant improvement after the first three treatments, they stop doing them. So it's pretty much make it or break it time. I had So. Much. Pain today, so I am not at all optimistic, though I realize that's shortsighted.

I keep obsessively checking my tumblr notifications, but it hasn't come up yet. :( Also, I checked for your Tumblr specifically and it comes up blank? Did you change URLs?